Locate Yourself?!

Certain experiences can really center you and identify exactly where you are as it relates to your maturity. I'd say the rapid expansion of my family  (from 5 to 7) allowed me to really look at myself and God in this situation. Like really, how mature am I? I had my sad party and my tears... Why is my family like this?! What about my date night etc? Dreams? Etc I mean every negative thought came to my head and at first I was allowing it to get me down. Then i remembered my defense against the blues and woes of this world .. Praise and worship. I meditated on God being an awesome God .... And then God gave me a blow like "why are you acting like the children of Israel lost in the wilderness mumbling and complaining? Have you forgotten who I am?" I must have dreamed about that conversation over and over. " remember I am your God. I was worshipping God in my sleep and I began to remember  I am the God of Abraham, I am the God of Sarah, I am the God of Joseph, .... And then I am the God of Tekeah. Geez Louise my story. Remember having no money for college, remember praying for a father, remember a husband, remember jobs etc. I am your God. I went thru stories of my friends and fam who served the same God and the same sentence would come up I am the God of_______. It really set me right. I was spending time looking at the wrong facts so I stopped and refocused. Instead of focusing on the changes around me I focused on the fact that God is my God and He has never let me down.  If I can make it thru college twice with no money surely He can provide for any situation. So that's that, God is my God and no change or situation is too much, because God has my back. I have been located.

Big girl panties!

So much has happened in between turning 33 & now. I remember just last month I was swinging from the trees literally (for my b day I did Go Ape) and now I have managed to go from 3 children to 5 children in a course of a month. Wowzers! To say my world has changed is indeed an understatement.  

Just last month I made my vision board for the new baby that's to come. And believe me we've been workin it lol. You know faith without works is dead lol. Even months before that we got a mini van in preparation for the little one to come. We added stickers of a new baby on board. And now as I ride in the van, it is filled to capacity. No additional seating. 

I def feel I'm being stretched and I wonder if our preparation for our baby was really preparation for both my cousins and a baby. One of my cousins is autistic and tho he isn't a baby, he requires the constant support and supervison like one. I don't understand  everything all I know is that it's def a year of maturity in every area.  But with the support of my husband and God, I believe that anything  is possible. I continue to hear in my spirit, God is fighting for me, God is on my side, he has overcome, yes he has overcome :) so all I need to do is put on my big girl panties and do the work!

So pardon my lack of blogging just so much has been happening.